Nikki Murphy

Phew! What a journey. From a practical point of view, I thought it was perfect. The right balance of activity vs quiet time, alternate activities, work alone, work in groups. I loved all of the spiritual aspects brought to the structure; the closing and opening ceremonies, and the setting of the space before every session. I feel that they really allowed us to open up to something that wouldn’t have been possible without that.

The content was great; each day so self-contained but leading us onto the next for progression. I felt the pace was spot on and the quantity of information to take in was perfect. I know from my own work that I can rush and try and put too much in but I really appreciate the time that you set which allowed everything to soak in.

And as for the results – quite honestly I am blown away. I have done enough stuff in my 43 years to have been prepared but I’ve never experienced anything like this. I’ve done meditation and had energy work. Been in shamanic and pagan ceremonies. Been in therapy, read 100s of self-help titles and studied all kinds of religions and philosophies.

I was ready. I know I was ready; that’s a result of all of the work I have done on myself over the last 20 years. However, the work that you gave and the space that you created took me somewhere I never thought I’d be able to go; into complete acceptance of myself.

I just taught a yoga class. I feel shit, have a migraine and barely made the drive home last night. It’s the clearing, I know, and I will be fine. But just now after class I waited for someone to move their car so I could get my car out and I could feel the skin on the bottom of my feet in my flipflops and I looked across to road at the sandwich shop across the road and felt so awake, so completely alive and grounded. I have never inhabited myself so fully or with such contentment.

All my life I have fought with my inner naughty imp. She’s been shamed and told to shut up so much that I let myself get serious and somewhere along the way I forgot that she’s the part that likes to make stuff. Not just jokes, but writing and creative stuff. Only in integrating her have I been able to let my fingertips dance the truth onto my keyboard and out of my heart.

And I know that you are modest to a fault, and I know that you’ll say this has happened because of the incredible group of women that turned up this weekend, and you’re right, we are all amazing! I am honestly blown away by each one; such a circle of power and creativity, such experience and vulnerability, all unique and yet all exactly the same. I know that we were all divinely drawn to participate in the group.

However, that circle could not have occurred without our own high priestess. If you weren’t vibrating and shining at such a high level you wouldn’t have been able not only to create, but hold that space for us all to join in this weekend. Each of us amazing, evolved, intelligent and beautiful souls would have vibrated ourselves to another teacher, another group.

So credit where credit is due. Thank you. In owning a much-shunned, much-shamed part of myself and integrating her fully I finally feel about to claim that I am a writer and allow out what I really want to say, and more importantly, I feel able to share it with the world.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. This has been Incredible and transformational; more than I ever thought could happen. I go home a writer!